Tuesday, August 28, 2007

damn!

how can friendster be in maintenance, now that i need it so badly!!
grrrrr,,

hmmm...

it's been a while since i last updated mah blog.

ahmmmm..

~ the song of my life right now ~

I Don't Love You-- My Chemical Romance

When you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

When after all this time that you still owe
You're still, the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow


~


treat me like a fool,
kiss me like i rule,
let me blow your mind,
i wanna USE you from BEHIND...

damn!

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

...For.Unauthorized.C******r.Knowledge.

fuck.

let me go.

SHE is DYING.

for God's sake.

u torture me

just because i can't immediately produce you a FREAKIN PIECE OF PAPER with a PHD's signature?

fuck.

how cold-hearted can you all get???

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

...blue...

so i guess i rili am gonna spend the rest of my jc lyf in meridian...
oh well...
old and new faces...
old and new classmates...
old and new life...


~


gonna change my subject combi...
am not gonna take lit anymore...
asyd from the fact tat it's too interestingly overwhelming 4 me,
it'll be preferable to take econs if i rili am gonna take BS Actuarial Science in university...
so yeah...
1st choice of course: S202
PCME all H2...

yeah,
it's almost-suicide...
but i rili need to keep myself occupied...
i can get very emo when in solitude...



~



*heartbleeds*

Friday, March 02, 2007

...prinsesa...

HOLIDAY YEAH!

no classes till tuesday..
apparently my school did very well for A levels so they r giving us a plus day off...




~



leche...

bat parang iba na ang trato mo sa 'kin?

bat di mo na ko kinakausap ng matino sa msn?

bat bigla mo na lng akong iniiwan sa ere tuwing nag-uusap?

lalo na sa mga oras kung kelan pinakakelangan kita...

kwento mo,

may nakilala kang babae..

masaya kausap...

oo cge..

dapat matuwa ako...

kasi at lis, alam ko may makakausap ka dyan ng personal habang wala ako...

pero di ko maiwasang magselos...

mag-isip ng kung anong mga pedeng mangyare sa inio...

leche... natambay ka pa sa kwarto nia...

ewan ko...

pero alam ko

natatakot ako...

pano kung isang araw mahulog n lng bigla loob mo sa kania??

i-tutaym ako, iwan...

blah blah blah...


sanggala...

paranoya lang toh...



haiz...

ewan ko...


~


dalhin mo ako sa iyong palasyo...

Monday, February 26, 2007

...frailty....

+ maths exams tmr.. thinking of ponning school... but well, i oso dun want coz well.... u noe....

+ listening to Fallen on Deaf Ears by Urbandub at the moment... damn... pinoy alt rawkz.....

+ refreshing my guitar skillz-- mastering DVDX by Sandwhich-- power chords damn easy but song is impressionable and not boring to play...

+ i've been eating a lot lately-- i feel fat... -- and guilty coz im supposed to fast...damn... i am so a non-devout Catholic now, i even forgot it was ash wednesday on wednesday... haiz...

+ i love nougat.


~


You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what i’m feeling
You gave me a meaning to my life
Yes, I’m gone beyond existing
And it all begun when I met you...

Thursday, February 22, 2007

...notoriety...

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

...stumble...

i am suffering from a terrible headache...
ouch...
it feels as though someone is hammering my skull off...


~


pV=nRT=NkT
blah... blah...
function of state...
ideal gas equation...
newton's law of cooling....



waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!

my head is gonna explode...
geez... in about two weeks term 1's gonna end...
meaning the "fun" part of jc will be over...
so not looking forward to it...

the very chim lessons awaiting...
argh..
esp physics...
jc physics is very tough unlike the 'o' levels...
u won't easily get an A by jst mere lst minute studying...
tho just cramming made me score my A1s in the monster Os..
it definitely wont work tis tym around...

i must be consistent in work....

no more flippant attitude...
no more breaking of rules...
no more killing cats...
no more rebellions...

i have to execute a PERSONALITY that SCREAMS INDEPENDENCY and MATURITY...

i am serious about getting a university scholarship...

i'm not letting my parents' hardwork go to waste...

they've done so much for me olredi...


~


no more cny practices for me...
my cca is gonna be very slack--
which is why i am thinking if i should go change to anoder one after jae...

i am thinking about joining odac,floorball, or soccer...
not xur yet knowing tat i dunnoe how to play floorball,
and my soccer skills r pretty lousy...

haix...
jc lyf...


~


i tried to run from your side,
but each place i hide,
only reminds me of you...

Monday, February 19, 2007

...irreplaceable...

hahahaha....

lolx....

hahahahahha...

hey readers, u shud all check out the MALE version of IRREPLACEABLE...

yeah... i can't stop laughing...

wahahaha...

i was browsing thru radioblogclub.com when i saw this song...

~

~

to the right, to the right.....

u mst not know bt me..

u mst think im playin...

coz i can hav anoder you in an hour,

in fact she's upstairs in the SHOWER...

~

geez... i am so high todae...

blame the sugar rush attack...

~

Friday, February 16, 2007

...black roses...

14.02.07

valentine's day felt empty without you...
i do not want any other date than you...
u spent the day with another girl...
and probably gave her a bunch of red roses...
how sad can life get...
T_T



~



When I leave,
I wanna wait for the silence...
You gave me all you’ve got,
But now I stand here waving at you
And still you smile, you’re still looking back

Maybe I just wasn’t kind enough
I’m fighting urges to fall again,
Yet I stumble...

These roses died 3 days since
Black roses died,
we said goodbye...
I’m sorry, I miss you...

How do I remain complete
When all we bled is lost?
We could’ve burned the earth and sky
A second chance,
The seconds spent
Each other’s shadow should've known...

Hear this: I’m yours
I’m at your feet

Inside this heart you still remain
But faded letters are erased...


(adapted from the song 7 Black Roses by Chicosci)

~

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

...results...

yeah... so i got 9 pts for my O's...
wheeeee....
i get to stay in mjc...
very nice...
at first i was afraid i'll get kicked out...
coz lotsa crazy stuffs happened during that monster period..
good thing i manage to pull it thru...


~


do ppl get together only to separate?
tis is sad....
how come important people in my life always leave me?
especially those people who have created a special bond wif me...

thrice i was @ the departure hall of changi airport...
thrice i watched these people i love go-- knowing tat i might not see them for a painfully long time...
thrice i cried...
thrice...

and will soon be counting...


~




treat me like a fool...
kiss me like i rule...
let me blow your mind...
use u from behind....




~

Sunday, February 04, 2007

this week...

+ i spent a total of 40 bucks on arcade [mainly on hotd4, time crisis4, bball shooting game, tekken5, and tat tribal percussion game... whooossshhh i gotta learn money management]
+ lst saturday, i slept wif 5 guys..
(no.. no.. not wat u think it is sicko.. i crashed into my guy friend's room and played bridge till
5am then jst fell asleep on the floor till 8.3o.. haha.. i am hastily becoming a creature wif XY chromosome now... girls save me..]
+ i saw him very often... esp ydae... nyahahaha... had a a very nice stargazing view i mst say... wahaha...[good im still a girl]
+ i love egg and tuna sandwhich...

=D


~

i wanna be the girl he's scared to lose.
the one where he [can't] walk away
from knowing she's mad *at* him.
the one who he can't fall asleep without
her voice being the last one he hears,
the ONE he can't
.L.I.V.E. .W.I.T.H.O.U.T.


~

"it's strange how one day u feel very upset then u sleep to wake up feeling nothing at all..."

-quoted from elizabeth 07S203


~

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

...exhausted...

had my ogl interview ydae...
whoosshh...
so scary inside the room...
but enw it's over...
gonna accept watever results come out...


~


cny dance performance not done yet...
only choreographed 2/3 of the whole thing..
not yet even polished...
rehearsal tmr...


~


got so many homeworks n tutorials to do...
sheeeeessssshhh..
i never felt tis busy in my lyf...

~


a good friend of mine is havin his bdae tmr...
unfortunately, i upset him days before that...
but he oso made me upset...
-_-


~


whhhhheeeeeee...
kilala nia ako...
hehehe...
by mukha at by pangalan...
wahahahahah...
ilang beses ko xa nakita ngaun...
bagong gupit..
teeweehee...


~


enw..
gonna destress myself first by playing cs...
i jst love tat classic game...


ciaoz~


~

Monday, January 15, 2007

...hazard...

ok... this blog is not safe anymore..
geezz... my lil sanctuary is gone..
oh well...


~


i got separated from my og..
my new class is 07S203..

at leche, kaklase ko yung kinaiinisan kong mokong!
hindi ako galit sa kania..
naiinis lng cguro talaga ako sa mga taong dada ng dada palagueh...
pa-impress sa mga teacher...
hmmmmmmmpppphhhhh...


~


enw so wat kung alam n ng buong hauz ko at ng hauz nia na crush ko c adam...
as if may pakealam xa..
captain xa, soccer player, ever-so-taas-at-almighty,
di nia papansinin ang isang simpleng junior n tulad ko...
hay nakow...


~


enw i got loads of works to do!!!!!!!!

so bye!!!!

=)

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

...revelation...

so i passed the dance audition.
yeay.
but i didn get selected for syf.
it's ok.
not upset about it.
thinking that i am not good in "spotting" (?!?), doing "biurets" (did i even hear it rite??), and twirling.
as in ballet.
i am more into hiphop n street dancing.
whooshh.
enw those not selected for syf must perform in CNY.
so i'll jst focus on tat.
=D



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i am now in mjc library.
and weishun u r rite.
somehow tkgs wasn't tat bad after all.
coz i had you, winnie, and amanda.
true friends are rili hard to find.
here in mjc, i gotta start from scratch agen,
and wishing tat someday i'll find genuine ppl lyk u.
=D




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updates about Mr. Atlas House Captain.
His name is Adam Ng.
and he is in soccer.

hot yeah??

=D


~


so tat makes him mr. impossible-to-reach.
coz i am jst a girl-nxt-door.

good thing it's free to dream.

=D



~


"Panalangin ko sa habang buhay,
makapiling ka, makasama ka,
yan and panalangin ko..."

- Panalangin by Moonstar88

Sunday, January 07, 2007

...orientation...

i am actually too lazy to post an entry 2dae..
but i jst feel guilty not having updated my blog for so long....

so here's the list...

+ my subj combi in mjc is PCMLit
+ i am planning to join dance as cca.. [auditions tmr!! wish me luck!!]
+ my house is Miranda [the black ranger]
+ i am currently in love with BOXERS-- i jst bought one.. tshirt+boxer feels more comfie to wear than pyjamas!! nyahahahaha...
+ i got this HUGE crush on my senior-- house captain of Atlas in mjc..[but i dunnoe his name yet]
+ i am getting addicted to whipped cream.
+ i love starbucks' toffeenut latte.

ok gotta end here... will update more soon i promise!!!

Thursday, December 14, 2006

...jc...

NRIC : G0384404N
Name : CYGNE FAME ANG

1. The results of your application are as follows:

Posted Institution: MERIDIAN JUNIOR COLLEGE
Course Name: MERIDIAN JUNIOR COLLEGE (SCIENCE)
Course Code: 36S

2.Please report to the JC/MI on 3 Jan 2007 at 8am.


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i'm ok with it...
tho agi told me it's quite stressful to study in there..

enw-- i am happy in a way tat i didn make it for sa arts--
coz i noe-- my friends noe-- i suck at arts..
and i rili hate humanities...

and at least, MJ uniform is not tat bad... compared to the
TK ugly-greenie-veggielicious-PRESCHOOL attire...

oh well...

i am still wondering what subject combination to take..
PHY-BIO-MATHS-LIT/ECON?!?
PHY-BIO-MATHS-KI?!?!

i am SO NOT GONNA TAKE CHEM.......
i am gonna cut out the most impractical school subj in the universe...

wahahaha...

as for my cca...
AIR RIFLE/SHOOTING?
WUSHU?!
TAEKWONDO?!
SOCCER GIRLS' TEAM?!!?!?!?

i find em all interesting!

oh well

good luck to me!


~

till now...

ciaoz~

Monday, December 11, 2006

...confused...

I belong to me...
It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life

It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right
Before I open up my heart to you

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in,
That who I am is not about who I am with,
That doesn't mean I don't wanna be here with you
I DO

I want you to know
I'll give up my love
but I'm not giving up my soul...



~adapted from Jessica Simpson's "I Belong to Me"


~


i dunno y i posted tat...
i just LOVE the song...

Maritess Vs. Superfriends

wahahahahaha...
tis video is rili funny!
i love it!
u shud watch this!

Friday, December 08, 2006

...changes...

NEWS UPDATE:

I've upgraded to Friendster's richer layout.
This is sad.
My previous profile is screwed.
So i gotta create another one.
Oh well.

If there's one thing constant in this world, that is change.

This is a fact.
So sometimes, we gotta take advantage of it.


=)


~

05.12.2006

i went to MTV Summit rock concert @ the fort field.
my company and i didn have entry tickets.
the booth ran out of em.
even frenzy condoms.
the wrapper could've been used to enter the field.
there were around 60 000 people.
i guess even more.
shhheeeeessssshhh.
so we gotta find people selling extra tickets.
of course, it'd be @ a much higher price.
but heck, who cares.
we badly NEED to go inside.

fortunately, we met 3 guys.
around my age i guess.
or 2-3 years older.
we cooperated to find tickets.
Upon entry we decided to stick together.
the whole nite was very fun.
=)

yeah.
so i was standing beside one guy among the 3 guys.
his real name is D'onell.
but his friends call him chuckie.
cute.
really nice.
sensitive but totally not gay.
gentleman.
a rocker.
really cool.
and we'd talk in-between and during band performances.
most of the time.
=)
He was rili friendly.
He even offered me his jacket.
coz well it was late @ nite
and was getting colder.
so i took it.

the tallest guy among them was the most handsome.
he kinda looked like my cousin.
hehe.
the other guy wasnt rili tat good-looking
but he got a rili great voice.

then it was later that i found out that they are actually in 1 band.
chuckie is the drummer. the tallest guy the guitarist.

my other company well didn mingle so much wif em.
but hey, i was totally having fun when wif those guys.

we hung out the whole nite.
and slammed wif other slammers in front
when the bands Kamikazee and Greyhoundz were playing.
the guys interlocked their arms to form a sorta "circle boundary",
and i was inside it.
so i was protected from the crowd and slammers too wild.
how sweet.
and we were all moving in circles against the crowd.
jumping lyk mad.
banging our heads.
and singing lyk crazy.
totally wild nite.
some perv even tried to get hold of me.
but sorry i was protected.
sheeeeessssssshhhh.

enw i learned tat they came all the way from Cavite.
woah.
with only 50 pesos in their pockets.
and they told me about all the hitchhikes they did.

they asked for my number.
and we might meet in Mall of Asia tis sunday.
i hav to meet my other friend.
they are doing sth else.
but hey...
rili glad i met em.


~


till now..
ciaoz~